girls always suffer.

i'm like sun burnt big time ah. and now my skin is peeling like no one's business and my itchy fingers cant stop peeling them. now i've got like 2 blotches of white. argh i shoulda just listened to sarah. hah my itchy fingers... anyways i'm feeling so very pms-sey rite now.. i dunno lah its the guy thing as usual. sometimes i just dunno if i love them or hate them. they act like big time jerks. insensitive and always expecting the girls to do stuff for them and sacrifice for them. selfish idiots. sometimes its hard being the only girl in your click of frens. i understand that feeling ah especially since i'm the only girl amongst the group of classmates i hang out with. yes it is fun with the boys and stuff but u realise they can really get childish at times and it really pisses u off. and sometimes when u try confiding in them they just cant giva damn. or at least they dun give constructive advice. they just ask u to chill, relax and take things slowly... i dunno ah but maybe i'm just expecting too much ah. i dunno how to describe what i'm feeling now ah but maybe its just the feminist thing. there are some kind of guys who complain too much and expect u to listen to them but when u complain they dun really giva shit. there's another kind who's like the selfish kind. they only say they wanna do this for u but they dun put words into action. there's another kind who blow up for no apparent reason and hates u for assuming too much. then there's another kind with the major EGO. then there's the other kind who tries to listen to u ah. but they just give comments which are rather stupid. or they just act as if everythings like so "relac" and just take things so slowly and do it their own way or whatever. they just act like they care but actually u dun even noe if they really do ah. maybe this is like too much or what but somehow most guys seem to fulfill these criteria if u even call them criteria. i dunno its like in the end its always the girls who suffer. and them when the girls care, guys will always like put their ego facade and act big, act strong wadever ah. and they just refuse to tell us ANYTHING. i hate it when u ask a guy what's going on or what's wrong and they give u the why-do-u-even-care look or the i-dun-wanna-tell-u-cos-i-have-a-ego look. it sucks ah. that's how girls show their concern and show how much these guys mean to them but what do us girls get in return? everything else but what we're hoping to get. we get mean comments. real mean ones that make us really feel like slapping the guy. but what do we do? just sit alone like a stupid idiot and cry because of what the guy said. it friggin hurts big time ah. guys sometimes just dunno how much pain they've caused to us girls no matter if its just frens or in a relationship. they dunno how much they're hurting the girl and how much the girl has to suffer in silence just because of some stupid words which came out of his bloody mouth. argh ok think its just the pms thing getting to me. argh... sigh. ok i dunno what else to say now.. no more comments anymore. guys are jerks. mostly..and most of the time. ok but maybe i can be a jerk sometimes. i dunno ah i'm always feeling i'm a jerk to some frens whom i really treasure alot. sigh, dunno lah yet sometimes these friends dun even know that i actually treasure them. what the hell. i dun even noe what i'm talking about now. ok whatever cherios!!