argh

my skin is peeling so badly!!dammit. now i look like some kaposi's sarcoma patient. (if i've even spelt it correctly) argh.. and i cant stop peeling haha its quite fun ah but now both my arms are like two-toned.. icky shit. ok anyway i'm at the library again and yah suddenly its friggin cold in here... haha i yay to fact that all the lecture tests are over and that finally there's time to actually sit down and relax abit. went to play bowling with denzil luther gerald and jj yesterday. yah and i got thrashed by all of them.heh its ok at least i had one strike. hee. ok yup really getting broke these days. yesterday just heard my dad complaining to my mom about the bills and stuff. argh. poor ppl tend to act rich. yeah..
i'm starting to hate myself for not bein a good girl and studying hard and listening during lectures. yeah i always end up sleeping or doing sth else. darn and yesterday we were just calculating the marks we needed to get for promos in order to get a certain grade to promote. i friggin shit need to get a hell lot of marks before i can get promoted. zzz... screw it man. i dunno feeling like sucha loser now. everyone's like doing so well.. and me? yah i'm not. there's no drive in me anymore. somehow i think that the school should have given us a study break instead of piling us up with more tutorials and saturating our minds with more unnecessary equations and formulaes. its no use.. nothing can go in at this time.. they could at least give us these 3 weeks to prepare ourselves for the friggin tough paper they're gonna set. aiyoh... in a nutshell they want us to die.. crap and i think i'm dying.. argh. school has no more meaning ever since i came here.. the only reason i'm still alive is cos i look forward to the frens.. but now almost half of them are gonna leave school... i'll feel so lost... grr.. i hate parting stuff.. they'll make me cry.. ok wad ever. jerome used to say, take this friggin prison as an institute to take your A's and den leave and never come back. haha .. i quite agree.. yup i dunno what else to say. so yah.. tk care u ppl out there and to all the year 2's study hard!!. to benjy if he ever see's this: tk care of yourself.. dun stress out k and hope ur doing better now! haha cherios!