when everything goes wrong

when your whole world leaves u out. that's when everything goes wrong. i felt it. i feel it everyday. i want to be alone. i need to be alone. i haven felt like i'm living life to its fullest. maybe i'm not. but i will learn. sometimes u can make it on your own. we all can. we just have to try.
but somehow deep down in me, i constantly bring myself down. for whatever darn reasons. i say i'm skinny, but i'm actually fat. i act like i'm nice. but i'm a bitch. i'm actually an evil person. i'm selfish. i'm useless. i'm heartless i'm everything you didn't think i would be. but the devil in me is taking over. soon... i'll become devil myself. u wont see much of me then.