Delirious

i slept a lil' over 330am this morning. i have no idea why i'm blogging like this. i watch as the world passes me by. the momentary piercing of the heart gets stronger and stronger. i feel weaker. i feel like a failure. the scent of fresh flowers have become the stench of dying ones. i've lost my motivation. i've lost everything. my senses are numb. numb.. every piece of me burning away.i choose to let it burn me away. i don't deserve anyone, anyone at all to be concerned about me. truth is, no one cares. i like to tell myself that the world is full of amazing people.. but none of them knows me. i wanna be disillusioned. stop being enchanted by everything that goes around me. we're not living utopia style. lies, hate, trouble all around. i wanna stop thinking like this. tell me the world's a nice place to live in..